this isn't what i've hoped for.

Moved back here.

2010-05-29T23:54:00.000-07:00

Okay so I've decided to post back here.
There's much more privacy down here since so many people know my livejournal.

I was in an emotional wreck yesterday but I guess its all over.
I got over you, just needed to know the facts right.
I'm sorry I wasn't that girl I was supposed to be,
You'll find a girl better than me then I wish you luck.

I'm gna start anew, be someone greater than great.

Whatever it takes, I'm gna get that blackberry cos you mean something to me.
You amaze me with every text.

LAST.

2008-10-26T05:54:00.000-07:00

My last post, moving to livejournal.
http://jusbananas.livejournal.com
LOVE YA'LL

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

2008-10-25T07:37:00.000-07:00

IVP over ! (:

Help ?

2008-10-24T06:32:00.000-07:00

In case you didn't know, I am very afraid for tmr.
The fear is killing me, spot the difference in me tmr.
Actually starting from now.

Have you ever felt so afraid, fear started eating you inside out?
Not the fear of people watching, but just a different fear approaching.
The time to shine or the time to embarrass..
Butterflies in my tummy not helping me tonight, i just wish..
Everything to turn out fine. TOP POLY.

Yessar i saw him again, now botak and and he came over to my place again ! (heehee he so hot sia) I is melting.

no sugar please.

2008-10-21T08:22:00.000-07:00

Wait wad is the big news? I forgot after trng.
Oh shit brain die die die. Sleep no oh ha ha eh night night. fight science sho kewlz yo yo/
mouth shut keep keep smile slap laugh. see you morning

you're crazy really seriously not kidding omfg yes.

2008-10-21T02:10:00.000-07:00

Talking about yourself?
POKE YOU SUCKER PUNCH KILL KILL KILL YOU(kryptic again)
ha ha ha. thank you so very much.

okay back to human language. OMG big news! Ask me when you see me arnd (:
sofa-king h8 skoolz.

(:

2008-10-19T22:08:00.001-07:00

hello i have so many many more hours before trng. boo
i have to study study!

my virgin race.

2008-10-18T06:25:00.000-07:00

one race down, two more to go! go go go

nice seeing brendy and yujun after soooo long.

not not fair ha ha ha? (kryptic msg, don't bother deciphering)

i might not have the right in saying this but, i'm saying it anyway. no team spirit no nothing. not even cheering for fellow team mates running. didn't think i'll see this sorta things in poly. everyone cares for only themselves WTF is this? aren't we a team? one for all, all for one? i hate whatever that's happening, i feel that nothing can be done but disband. haix

toodles.

holy crapp.

2008-10-17T07:09:00.001-07:00

Today was an awfully bad day. It was so boring waiting for tutorials to start and school to end. Friday is eew day.

Haha wtf we were talking so much during accounts lecture. Nobody was listening. But accounts tutor's good. I actually understand? Haha rare.

Tmr is IVP day one, good luck to those competing, top poly here we come! Okay I have to mug mug mug, cos i forgot everything from last sem, fuck

Workload's piling while i'm doing nothing

hello kitty.

2008-10-16T08:46:00.000-07:00

we lane six for relay. i am tired tmr's a long day.

why do people get to go on so many holidays but i go so little every year? i want to leave and have some fun

yawns

breaking dawn.

2008-10-15T07:38:00.000-07:00

I can't speak
I can't make a sound to somehow capture your attention
I'm staring at perfection
take a look at me so you can see
how beautiful you are
(hmm 1-2 more weeks and maybe i'll see your face again)

i have to start doing work, listening during class. WAKE UP, this isn't primary school.

ivp is in 3 days, but i might not be running still. coach hasn't confirmed who is running. well i'm not really bothered cos it doesn't matter to me if i run or not. but don't you think it's alittle unfair? making the two of us run our guts out during the last few relay trngs and suddenly say one of us is not running.

wonder when 200m trng will start. sad to say i'm feeling anxious, idk if i have the stamina or the power to run.

oh and if you're reading this, can you don't say this infront of my face? cos i know and you don't have to tell me you know cos i don't care. ya.

what an annoying day.

2008-10-14T06:52:00.000-07:00

back hurts, feet hurts, ankle hurts, knee hurts. omg why are my fucking joints so weak.

eeew met so many CKP's of all races today going home after 930. its still early bastards, go find the sluts and whores.

okay one happy part, husband dragged me to dinner with her. sooo yaand we laugh until i could feel my pacs. or maybe just my fats in my stomach. dang

this is random.

2008-10-13T07:41:00.000-07:00

i think i want to lock up some of my posts. for my personal use. (: i dont want to reveal too much to the world. im not happy, and havent been lately. troubled.

ATIQAH'S IDEA

2008-10-12T09:10:00.000-07:00

You Should Call Your Boobs

He-Man & Skeletor

What Should You Nickname Your Boobs?

fuck this day!

2008-10-12T08:29:00.000-07:00

i feel fat. dammit, why can't we just love ourselves? not to say i've never tried but there were times i felt right and good. but those days are long over. freaking track's building up my already-thunder-enough thighs. hate it! i feel so zibei. even my sister's who's taller is skinnier. but what i dont get is she is still heavier than me.

Nights In Rodanthe

2008-10-12T05:10:00.000-07:00

Can't wait for this show to be out. It's such a sweet and awesome show, I can so tell. Yay 4 more days? Haha

Okay, just got back from dinner nearby. Mommy ordered way way too much that I was stuffing my face. XO bee hoon crab (x2), spinich cooked with century egg& minced meat and finally sambal stingray! PS. its meant for 3 people to eat, not 10. But everything was good, the crab was meaty and I had four pincers! (technically 3.1/2 cos 1/2 flew to the floor) YUMMY. And mommy said another thing, that I was the only child and to be pampered (:

Let me see, another 6 days to ivp now WTF. I do not want to run. (x1000000) F***sticks. Hmm today was YTF at granny's then started packing our remaining things from there, screams and shouts were thrown from all over. Was effing pissed with aunt, kept f***ing things up. When we got home, my parents were fighting (mom needed her attention) and my sister screamed her head off at the two of them. Omg my room's in a mess, back to square one with boxes everywhere. And this is a realy long post, wow. Oh there are like clothes in my cupboard now? And there are alot alot (: And the clothes i'm throwing seem to be haunting me, like i left them at my aunt's to throw..it appeared in my granny's place..then now its home with me. geez. Oh another thing is, my daddy says we're gna have a bad life future life. We throw too much things away and we'll get retribution..remember what goes around comes around. hmm.

I shall go prepare for school and pack my room more. yawns. I.HATE.UNPACKING.

rubbish.

2008-10-11T07:34:00.001-07:00

What's Sexy About Your Name

You are sexy because you have an almost universal sex appeal. Many people desire you.
You are a huge flirt, and you can't help but come on to people.

You love attention, whether it's from your partner, friends, or strangers.
In fact, nothing makes you feel less sexy than being ignored.

You tend to be interested in whoever is the most interested in you.
You are attracted to people who dote on you. You like to be worshipped.

What's" Sexy About Your Name?

is this true?

2008-10-11T07:30:00.001-07:00

What Chanjiaminjustina Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic “Type A” personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. (heh)
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

early mornings vs late nights

2008-10-11T05:55:00.000-07:00

one day and a few more hours till school.

well to the you'll: okay i'm not pissed already. but please dont do it again and when i say stop, please stop. thanks. yea so work towards ivp, goodluck.

flipping by days.

2008-10-11T02:57:00.000-07:00

One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Fly far far away
To a place where i belong

On a happier note, yesterday night my dad brought my cadbury chocolates up to my room and said," aye, cadbury chocs, not scared of melamine ah?" Then i replied," OMG daddy, worse thing is I die only right? You got sabby and nick enough already wad.." Then from my sister's room.." NO NO irreplaceable.." (beyonce's song) I love my family. In the midst of packing my room/clothes but lost the mood. feck

ps. i hope something happens to me now, no more ivp ((:

was i dumb or dumb

2008-10-10T07:26:00.000-07:00

i thought i said stop it all
but no, go on just say it all
infront of me, infront of him
poke and laugh your f***ing ass off.

i trusted you'll cos we're close and all
backstab and kick me right in the ass
thanks alot, my secrets shall stay within me.
hah, now you'll just lost my trust.

a chance will be given to get back my trust,
but be wary things will never be the same.
leave me time to f***ing forget this shit.

BYE

camp in my sleeping bag not gonna move.

2008-10-08T07:59:00.001-07:00

rain rain rain was all that happened today. thunder accompanied with lighning for several times, made me jump out of my seat at the 265 bus stop. my brolly's all rusty, its time to get new brollies! haha then trng was alright but damn i can't stop thinking about the fact that i might be the first runner..starting blocks..gun..feeling like i'm running uphill..the one to start the ball rolling. geez the feeling seriously creeps me out. well when we finished our last run, it started pouring. t'was nice, the view with the spotlights and the millions/gillions of rain drops falling from the sky. i should have brought my camera to snap pictures cos there was an amazing view. but i realised form photos then they don't really come out as beautiful as seen real, guess sighting experience beats megapixels.

tmr is sleepover at my place, my turn to be host. dang i hate being host haha. aye i apologise first hand if i'm not a good host (: anyway i want to collect a small fund so we can but snacks and all then go crazy later on. haha or you guys want to bring on your own? ohya daddy's papers are in, time for me to go work..for my new phone. XOXO, sayonara

did i mention, housebunny is a nice nice show uber funneh with uber hot people. rocks i tell you (: oh oh oh and i'm wearing splints to sleep, lock jaw's coming back ):

the way to a girl's heart is through her chest. (radio edit)

2008-10-07T10:16:00.000-07:00

what exactly is falling in love? heart pounding fast when that person approaches? blushing or not looking that person in the eye? some people can say i love you when a) you don't even know me b) i don't know you c) we don't click d) we're just friends. i mean do people mean it from the bottom of the heart or just saying it to win someone's heart? this is so stupid. one minute you like her, the other another. see that ain't love, thats just liking or maybe even just being blinded by a person's outer appearance. love isn't just about looks or sex appeal. tsk day two and i miss those eyes, if only you knew..

haha to be continued.

wait, how many more days to IVP?

2008-10-06T09:44:00.000-07:00

my timetable's out. i got to wake friggin' early for so many days and eeew back to having monday blues? haix and i end at 4 on friday which means hell during trng. yawns. i'll be so tired definately. mabbe gng shopping with my sister tmr. zz and my internet sucks, i keep getting disconnected! zzzz

when you love someone
and they break your heart
dont give up on love
have faith, restart (:
ahhh i will not see the hottie for 3 weeks.

me wants to be a camp rocker

2008-10-05T05:01:00.000-07:00

hmm we should have camp rock in singapore. i'll totally join if it isn't too pricey. sadly there isn't one. anyways my bro's friend a total hottie came over yesterday ahhhh (:
fate has let me met him lotsa times around singapore and wow singapore is so small, he turns out to be my brothers friend. but he's going to the army like soon damn.
people lie and i hate liars. go away.

a very long quiz.

2008-10-04T01:30:00.000-07:00

ARE YOU:
►Perfect: hah yea right, no one's perfect.
►Tall: i would very much like to be tall, sadly no.
►In your pajamas: nope.
►Left handed: nah, i'm a righty.
LAST:
►Friend you saw: kelly laychi syafiq.►Talked to on the phone: was it dad?
►Person to text you: tong.
►Is today better than yesterday: no.
FAVORITE:
►Number: 3 and 9.
►Color: purple green yellow.
►Food: subway is da bombzxz.
►Place: my dreams (happy ones)
QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:
Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
► shouted yes to my mom.
Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
► yes yes and more yeses.
Q: What's the last movie you watched in theaters?
► hmm i can't rmb, haven't had time to watch. (:
Q: Where is the last place you went?
► amk hub.
Q. Do you smile a lot?
► i should think so.
Q: Do you wish upon stars?
► sometimes when i'm feeling really down or desperate.
Q: Are you a friendly person?
► err you can say so?
Q: Where did you sleep last night?
► on my sister's bed.
Q: Why did you sleep there?
► well she asked me to..so i did.
Q: When was the last time you cried?
► hmm several nights ago?
Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
► remember to my brush teeth.
Q: Rate life as of right now, one being bad, ten being great?
► 4
Q: What do you hear right now?
► the spinning of the fan and my itunes.
Q: Does anything hurt you right now?
► yea (my freaking bak is giving me problems, my muscles aches etc etc.)
Q: What's your favorite month?
► september.
EMOTIONS:
Are you missing someone right now?
► ythink?
Are you single?
► yea.
Are you tired?
► nah.
BASICS:
►Real name?
Justina Chan.
►Age? 17 going on 18.
►Eye color? dark brown.
►Zodiac sign? virgo.
►Male or female? female.
►Married? No.
►Crushing? hmm eyecandies but no crushing.
►Smart? haha, if i were smart would i be doing this quiz..
►Hair color? brown.
►Sweats or Jeans? jeans.
►Phone or Camera? phone.
►Health freak? at times when i'm feeling fat.
►Righty or lefty? righty. why ask again.
FIRSTS:
►First best friend? well hmm samantha ngui.
►First award? wad do you consider an award..hmm first gym award in p5 (come my house i'll show you :)
►First enemy? gladys wong. (she broke my mommy's glass and WAS irritating.)
►First pet? cat called sugiro.
►First vacation? crap i can't remember.
CURRENTLY:
►Eating? no.
►Drinking? no
►Listening to? always be my baby.
►Plans for tomorrow? granny's for lunch, ecp and hmm idk.
►Waiting for? time to pass.
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER:
►Lips or eyes? eyes definately.
►Shorter or taller? both are fine but people say taller guys give you more security. haha
►Romantic or spontaneous? romantic.
►Sensitive or loud? too much of both isn't good. an in-between?
►Hook-up or in a relationshp? in a relationship.
HAVE YOU EVER:
►Drank bubbles? hurr i'm not a lunatic.
►Lost Contacts ? yea.
►Ran away from home? thought of..
►Broken someone's heart? yea sorry.
►Been arrested? haha err i'm a good person.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
►Do you like someone? not anymore.
►Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? nope. maybe in time to come all will change for the better.

wonder day with mommy-kins.

2008-10-04T01:06:00.000-07:00

woke up to go to toapayoh toyogo shop but i didnt get much 'cept a dustbin. wanted to head to thomsan plaza for lunch then grocery shop but there was no lot available. so we left and had lunch near my place and dad dropped us off at hub to buy groceries. met kelly laychi and syafiq there. coolios. mom wanted to look at phones and phew she bought one straight away..feels good to have money aye. i have been wanting a new phone for so long but nobody wants to get me one. pfffft. look thats a super cool E71. i'm allowed half a day to play with it. dang i want a new phoneeeeeeee

untitled.

2008-10-03T08:34:00.000-07:00

what do you do when life screws on you?
sometimes i wish i was never brought into this world.
but its up to me to make life better right

3/10/08 zz

2008-10-03T07:55:00.001-07:00

firstly i would like to say congrats to atiqah for starting a new blog haha.

hmm today started off fine, woken up by the morning shower (rain with the sun), caught alittle teevee and headed out to meet the rest at pizza hut for lunch. i ate me beef lasagne (not very shiok) and went to school for trng. woot trng today was confusing? haha i didn't get what coach was saying at all. ran ran ran, now my butt back whole body aches. caught the train down with faeez (mr-i-think-im-so-cool) met my family for dinner at raffles city SICHUAN COURT. the lady gave me a glass of wine and i was feeling real real tired from trng and the wine. now i'm back home and ready to get to bed. my yummy-licious bed! but wait i'm not gna sleep as yet, i've got things on my mind.

i think you're gay, i think you're damn gay. i'm having a pimple outbreak and feeling fat. (great)

as a new chapter unfolds

2008-09-29T21:40:00.000-07:00

there is rain, there is sadness. but rainy days does do some good, hydrates things and stops us from wanting to leave the house to stay home and take a breather.
I am almost done packing my stuff in my aunt's place but i still got tonnes in my granny's. come to think of it, school is starting soon. back to studying stress schoolwork suckyfood. (well not all the stalls that is)
oh mom made me sign up as a relief teacher..but my holidays are ending in less than 2 weeks, isn't it abit late to sign up now? that means i only work for 5 days. hurr this sucks balls.
sleepover cum bonding cum getting fat session on wednesday. can't wait. hmm not the getting fat part course.

thunder thighs signing off.

wake me up when september ends.

2008-09-29T09:20:00.000-07:00

FAT ASS.

i once knew a boy as beautiful as the sunset

2008-09-28T03:37:00.000-07:00

http://supertinabanana.blogspot.com

heh only cool people can read this.

if you can't leave a comment MAYBE i'll reconsider

get my wheels running.

2008-09-26T08:50:00.000-07:00

today's trng was hokay. i was pushing and pushing cos i could feel the lactic all over. wow abstinence from fastfood and all the unhealthy junk? i guess so. go tina. go go go (: remember don't hold back anymore like everyone said.

i somehow think most september babies are pretty/handsome. i don't mean myself obviously. =.=

OSTF

2008-09-25T20:47:00.000-07:00

Yesterday night brother bear showed my sister and I videos they made in OCS about their life in OCS. Haha it was super duper funny. I was laughing my head off.. Meeting Wanyin and Chorhoon at amk hub later on for subway. I woke up early therefore I am online doing rubbish. Who cares if it is friday? Cos its still holiday for me HAHA.

i don't want to waste your time. do you see things the way i do?

we cry.

2008-09-24T07:54:00.000-07:00

haiya thinking about it makes me sian but deep inside there is fear.. i'm sick of being human. god please let me be an immortal.

2008-09-23T21:40:00.000-07:00

save me, run baby run.

this is me.

2008-09-22T06:18:00.000-07:00

outing for a half
training for a half
got home before midnight
blasted music really loud
thinking out to myself
screaming inside of me
why is this so
its been effing long
you busy green man
i missing missing you
so so very much.

Went to Bugis street with Wanyin, didn;t get anything prolly cos i'm broke. She bought quite a lot of things (: Then headed off to trng. Coach scared me, he said I was 400 reserve..seriously i'm not a 400 runner! This is impossible, oh wells luckily its reserve cos I have really bad experiences with <400m. Haiya I don't know how to live my life, its so screwed up.

come rain on my parade.

2008-09-21T07:28:00.000-07:00

i'm falling deeper every second
am i invisible or easily forgotten
cos' i clearly haven't forgotten
that faint glimpse of you.

can't you tell
i'm hanging on
give me signs
tell tale signs
yes or no
i don't know
i really wish
for another try
hear your breathe
hold you close
can't you see
i'm losing my mind.

the excitement in your punctuations
makes me weak and soft
to know you still bother to even reply
when will this beautiful day come,
never i guess..
i wish i pray i hope for that day.

XX XY or ??

2008-09-20T06:40:00.001-07:00

Oh oh did i tell you? Haha they're all guessing but i'm attracting this girl but but but of course i have better taste! Hehe eeeeeeks.

19 sucks.

2008-09-19T08:58:00.000-07:00

Today totally sucked head on. Right from the beginning it had been a bad day. Woke up early caught the train down to Boon Lay, couldn't get seats so tch and i stood the whole journey down. Reached earlier then expected and the rest were late. (sorta) Worked my ass off for effing long hours and hmm I think I only earned $65!??! Haiya but the people were very nice and friendly so ahwells. Had to rush off to Nat's place and we stupidly rejected calling cab and all for free..walked out and ended up being stranded on Boon Lay island for hmm 45 minutes. Got on bus 254 then trained down all the way to Novena and then cab to Yishun. The train was !@#% slow and there were no !@# cabs. Though the cab fare was OMG I had fun over there. HAPPY 19th NATALLI BABY! Meet up soon ya'll. Tired and sunburnt.

my heartbeat grew faster
as I saw you afar
blood rushed upon my face
but in the end
it wasn't you

four letters.

2008-09-18T08:58:00.001-07:00

one word: FUCK.
got to wake up at effing 5am. goobyes

wowwheeee

2008-09-16T02:21:00.003-07:00

MY BED.

the front of my hse? not exactly done yet, my uncle suggested some new ideas. hoho

last kiss - pearl jam

2008-09-16T02:21:00.002-07:00

I admire paralympians because they give me the power to...move. It's interesting to se how they move with such agility and grace with disabilities. (missing a hand or leg) Baby I can't forget you but I have to forget you. I know why you can walk all that long distance because you've got practice running through my mind. CCC:

I like the way you look me in the eye but not the innocence you display.

I like the way you message me but not the insensitivity on your part.

I like your sexaye legs but not they way you shy away.

I like the way you play your sport but not the way you speak.

I like the way you make me laugh but not the laughables made about me.

I XXXX YOU.

this love - maroon 5

2008-09-16T02:21:00.001-07:00

I guess I shoudn't be complaining about my ever so average results. But for how much effort I put in..totally isn't worth these grades. Oh well, this should push me even harder for next semester hitting my target. I wanted As yet I got Cs. My results sucksss asssss ballsss serioussssly. I'm spending money faster then I can replenish it, O-U-C-H my pocket's burnt. Golly golly bad results, I guess I shouldn't be dwelling over thhis anymore sooooo goodnight! I'm gna nappy wappy.
life's never the same without you.

when i grow up - pussycat dolls

2008-09-13T07:10:00.000-07:00

There's nothing much I want to say. Atiqah! It's saturday and I haven't got that message. ):

hey hey you you

2008-09-12T09:36:00.000-07:00

After dinner i met up with my baby loves! We cam-whored too much. I think i got all high cam-whoring plus macs and funny people. Babes we got to meet up again soon, i love all your company! I'll upload photos later when i get them. I guess tmr i'll be the only girl doing hydro. geeeeeeeeeeeeeeez booring. This has been the coolest birthday in all my 17 years. Thanks everyone who made it extra special!

(Mabbe its time to let go for real. Forget everything we once shared.)

haha try this, its fun!

2008-09-10T23:21:00.000-07:00

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer, no matter how silly it sounds'

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
When you look me in the eyes.

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Hey now how.

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
You and I both

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
She’s having my baby.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Crying in the rain.

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
On the way down.

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Somewhere in the middle.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
That girl has love.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
The blower’s daughter.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
World of our own.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I want you back.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Last christmas.

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Dirty little secret.

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Every little thing.

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
The prayer. (piano piece)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Pippin’s song.

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Guilty.

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Stranger. (so true)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Only hope.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
How we roll.

1st trng after being sick for ages.

2008-09-10T08:59:00.000-07:00

My arms are dead from weights trng. Boohoo. Went swimming then to NTUC and then to dinner. I miss going to NTUC with my parents and grabbing countless items off the shelves and forcing them to pay for it. Soon, Thomsan Plaza NTUC here I come! (well when i move back that is) I got a adidas shirt from the seniors and everyone else, really sweet (: thanks guys. I'm finally tired and about to fall asleep. Chorhoon I if you're reading this, haha I hope that job pays well! Msn's being a bitch, I can't access and keeps telling me to try again later. Zz even ebuddy's down. I guess my life is pretty boring without msn and the internet. Another two more celebrations to go before I am officially 17. Wonders, all the good food I eat is gonna make me put on like 20 pounds. Yawnzz. Ohyes everybody take care of yourselves, don't fall ill! (:

- i miss you like ****.

haix

2008-09-08T08:39:00.000-07:00

i missed you and hope you remembered my birthday take care whereever you are. we havent spoken in ages. haix

chasing pavements.

2008-09-08T00:53:00.001-07:00

Introducing the Jonas Brothers. I used to think they were pretty ugly and dudes who can't sing. I guess I was wrong? Have to agree that joe is the bestest looking. Ahh I think I want to get their new album cos the songs are great and not to mention meaningful. Hell sucks to be sick for such a long time.

sick-ker

2008-09-06T08:15:00.000-07:00

The view from level three. (:

My sister's room.

My useless empty room cos my furniture's not readyyyyy

help, i'm not getting any better but worse. hurr how to enjoy my birthday like this!? maybe i really am dying. haix off to recuperate and rest!

back to this again

2008-09-04T09:33:00.000-07:00

i must be so bored cos i keep changing skins then reverting back to the original. i had my birthday celebration today and was sucky as usual. the seating arrangement was totally wrong. i was sitting next to my sister's bf and brother's gf. like how the hell am i supposed to talk to them right. i got cool gifts. yet was disappointed cos my sister usually spent more effort on my gift and this is the first time i got a gift from my brother. ohya i caught a fever this morning, wanted to die.

2008-09-02T23:43:00.000-07:00

did you know you're HOT

bored day number one.

2008-09-02T01:21:00.000-07:00

what do i look like? the wizard of oz? you need a brain? you need a heart? go ahead, take mine, take everything i have.
i freaking hate insensitive bastards. stink off.

omg omg i'm reading stephenie meyer's 4th book and its the sex really. i'll bet the movie sucks cos i watched the trailer and eeew waste my money, everyone's ugly even the girls. vampires are supposed to look perfect omf.

7

eight.

2008-09-01T08:00:00.001-07:00

8 more days before i turn seventeen
kinda bored celebrating it, mabbe i'll just sleep through that day ):

human race 10k.

2008-08-31T10:01:00.000-07:00

Oh yes the human race was fun (: Even though my legs are now dead and i'm still hungry despite eating twice my normal dinner. (i apologise if i look like crap)

As days past me by, i am growing. Growing more mature, intellectual (i hope) and mentally tougher. I've got 7 weeks to kill, starting officially tmr. My to do lists is almost halfway done when the holidays haven't even started. Btw, only a few of us didn't join back touch and i feel bad. Now we won't get to crash against each other. Meet up soon please, wait none of my touch friends know about my blog HAHA. Ah this stupid drama i'm watching is making me cry like f*** and i feel like i am dying. -_-

(:

2008-08-30T03:15:00.000-07:00

LEON jay williams.

OMG he is a hottie. (:

Williams is of mixed English, German, Japanese and Chinese descent

Amazingly hot, haha cos i got nothing to watch and decided to turn on the telly and saw this show called 'green light, my home' the storyline is lame but ahhh

let the light shine on me

2008-08-29T09:40:00.001-07:00

haha my blog title is so ambiguous. i uploaded peekchures on facebook and some on friendster. its too troublesome to upload all sooo yea, im lazygirl_91. YAY i'm turning 17 in ten days. Another year older, another year wiser! After a good night's rest, i feel healthier and better. Felt so f**ked up during the mr and ms SA thing. I was like almost dying trying to keep alive. wowzz

you can say im sorta happy for now thanks SA (:

hmm i ate a lot today and it isn't good, well looks on the bright side (wait there isn't). totally burned a hole in my pocket which is totally horrible of me. i didn't know next week is the official start of holidays. WOWWHEE. i love the holidays when there are things to do. i effing need a job. whoever has kaki's can tag me please. many many thanks and flying kisses. heehee i bought new havainas cos my sister was complaining like f**k and i got a red one! sooooooooooooooooooo hot.

my mind is wondering. im sleepy but i can't sleep cos i just had prata. why did i just eat that for

:.downtown east was da bombzxz.:

2008-08-28T09:17:00.000-07:00

Haha omg i came back on the second day! I couldn't survive living on no sleep and bad weather. I'm falling sick, like really really sick. Goly. I think its cos of all the junk we ate, getting caught in the rain and wild wild wet. I kinda lost my voice! Geez and i was supposed to accompany atiqah and laychi to stay for one more night but i was going nuts, so laychi went home with me. Shag to the max, think i'm going to wake up at 5pm tmr. Prolly not trng, too dead and ache-y. Hell i need a jobbbbbb. Tsk do not ask me out cos i am broke. Unlessyou're paying for everything. Haha. Pictures shall be posted as soon as they are uploaded! Im tiredddddddd. Nights.

save money.

2008-08-26T05:44:00.000-07:00

GEEEZ, after spending the day with veron, i realised i got many more things i want to get! Like i have to produce 700 plus dollars to get whatever i want. My parents refuse to give me more money! Like they don't even want to return me money for buying my lenses. Oh i hope my parents give me more birthday money, pleaseeeeeee.

good trng after a long break.

2008-08-25T07:02:00.000-07:00

Trng was nice? I was tired but it wasn't lactic thank god. (lactic's on friday) Eeeew i so do not want to run NIKE human race. I don't want to push myself running that 10k. I seriously have no stamina. Back to my current life. Been trying to do everything slowly, living life fully by the second. Taking time to realise. (: So long, back to boring old stuff.

today's weather and holiday plans. whoo

2008-08-24T21:28:00.000-07:00

The weather's all emo again, but getting better. The sky's healing from sadness and it has stopped shedding tears. The sun's trying to come out, make the day all happy and bright. Woke up at effing 8am to collect my race pack. I expected it to be very very crowded but i got my pack without a queue. Haha and i felt like being a nice girl, so i called Tong to help him get his race pack, to save him from queueing for another 4 hours. There's another 123456 hours before trng and i might consider taking a nap to replenish my sleep debt. I hope trng's nice and good today. I hope i don't die cos i haven't trained in weeks. All fat and unfit. Dang exams, make me all lazy and no motivation to run. Oh wells, hopefully i can now focus on running, all the way till IVP and then from IVP i shall take things slow.
Things to do during the holidays:

Pick up an instrument.
Read 'Breaking Dawn' [hotness]
Go shopping
Get myself a job to buy a pair of nice sport shoes and a pair of specs
Move into my new house! [yay yay]
Throw all unnecessary things away.
Class chalet [omg omg fun fun cam-whore!]
Get a nice tan
Buy my closet
Shopping and buying everything i want
SLEEP!

wow thats alot of things to do. but ah wells, holidays here i come! (: night y'all!

20082008 ; long rains.

2008-08-24T02:33:00.000-07:00

Its been pouring since i don't know when. Rain please go away, you're making my days emo. I'm stuck at home, doing nothing besides listening to emo songs. Wanted to collect my nike human race pack today but it was effing crowded.

this is real, this is me, i'm exactly where im supposed to be.

true friends?

2008-08-23T08:07:00.000-07:00

it might seem like i have a lot of friends and everything. but out of the many, i can only talk my true feelings to a few and even msg them to tell them of my sorrows. i cannot trust some, i don't want to talk to some and sometimes just awkward to msg others. i'm not even close to you msg you for what. they might even think i'm crazy to suddenly msg them.

i feel so ~~alone~~ in this cold cold world.

heart pain sia haha

2008-08-22T10:19:00.001-07:00

i want to spend time,
go out with you,
have as much fun as before,
has things changed since?

haha err random people, if i do not go out with you means its not you. wait still don't think or try and guess who cause its really not you. it's someone special. (: and im not saying who as i am the only one who knows that person.

the day exams end in sem one.

2008-08-22T07:36:00.000-07:00

sometimes situations force us to do stupid things
and somehow its always me.

since exams are over, its time to get my ass working/cleaning the house/cam-whore and exercise. i hate exams, they make me damn fat. i hate exams. next sem i shall work harder to get my A's. too slack this term, tsk.

again?

2008-08-21T06:06:00.000-07:00

i will give up anything for the one i love
you're the voice I hear inside my head
the reason that I'm singing

does loving someone mean you feel a tinge of jealousy when that person gives attention to someone else? cos that's wad im feeling now.

the impossible quiz

2008-08-20T08:54:00.001-07:00

I am smarter than 60.23% of the rest of the world.
Fun Quiz

my head hurts.

2008-08-20T05:46:00.000-07:00

you're selfish
you're heartless
you're vulgar
there's no way i'm even falling for you.
in this life, i've ever only fallen into true love twice.

back to happier note, econs was okay? i thought it would be really really hard but ends up with something rather manageable. seeing how 2008 has been, i've regretting tonnes. i hate the life im in, the situations i get myself stuck in. there's so many other things i should be doing, yet im wasting mylife away doing things that do not benefit me. i want my old life back, back to square one.

QUIZZZZZ. from jolene (:

2008-08-19T08:14:00.000-07:00

Three.
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
- Tina, Jus & Jiamin.
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
justinana, tina banana & justini.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
my neck, my waist & fingers.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
fat thighs, fat arms & a lot more..
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
my yellow skin, short height & dont know.
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
apparitions, stalkers & being alone.
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
my mobile, my specs/lenses & ipod.
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW:
specs, fbt's & milk run shirt.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
david archuleta, westlife & A1
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (RIGHT NOW):
come on, crush & 小情歌
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
love, trust & more love. (what's a relationship without love)
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
hotness, eyes & legs. (:
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
being hung upside down, sleeping & EATING.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
enjoy life, spend time with my loved one & take a plane fly to somewhere free from my troubles.
THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED:
be a teacher, a rich taitai & full-time slacker.
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
europe, hawaii & maldives.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
get married, have twin children & travel the world.
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:

im fat, i got fat thighs and eeew pimples!

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE NOT STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
i got big arm muscles, the way i sit and teeheehee secret. (:
THREE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW
anyone anyone anyone.

let down.

2008-08-19T06:44:00.001-07:00

Chengfei didn't perform as expected for her events. Where did her grace, power and confidence go? Urgh and i missed all the women's individual events. Tsk i want to watch. Anyway my sister says Liu Xiang didn't quit because of injury but because he didn't want to lose. He couldn't beat the world champ thats why he dropped out.
Today i studied with Atiqah from about 12 all the way to 7. Only econs. Tell me we're hardworking, we so deserve a pat on the back. Haha hopefully tmr's test is manageable, so i can at least pass. So my hardwork won't go to waste. (:
I feel useless today. Like a jelly-fish.

random.

2008-08-18T09:43:00.000-07:00

is this what i really want
all i want to do is rant
im crying inside for hope

i miss tearing the vaults
exploding on the floor
flying on the bars
arching on the beam

2008-08-18T06:56:00.000-07:00

Yelena Gadzhievna Isinbayeva is hot. She's rated gold for her hotness. Watch her pole vault, she's amazing. <3 her. Haha today's AFA was better than expected, i thought it'll be really hard but i managed to actually do and get answers. (: yay me.
Baby! 2 down, 2 more to go! Starting econs tmr. (: Btw im not happy with the gymnastics results events final. I hate the results, come on its obvious the chinese and americans rock. why did random people get the gold? This doesnt make sense.
After exams, i want to go on a short trip. To anywhere, maybe to hongkong? I want to shop shop and shop. (: Oh people i want to shop after exams, so jio me yo!

AFA- accounting for assholes.

2008-08-17T08:01:00.000-07:00

If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh I'm not coming back.
I'm sorry baby, i missed lunch appointment with you cos i had family lunch. Soon okay after my exams, i'm all yours. (: study hard too!

<3

2008-08-16T07:07:00.000-07:00

i say are you gonna be my girl. i've known you since i was ten, you were always there for me.

lesbianismz

2008-08-16T02:22:00.000-07:00

i am lesbian. i like girls. heh dont believe ask atiqah. and i think this picture's hot. why are you always blaming others? search yourself for the answers please.